Slaughter in the Back Yard

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When we moved into our new house last May, Spring had already consumed our small, quarter-acre lot. The azaleas in the front were in full, brilliant bloom–an explosion of pinks and reds and whites that distinguished our home from all others along our quiet street. In the back yard, where our property line kisses the Goucher College woods that extend deeply, well beyond any vanishing point discerned even by the tallest of rooftop dwellers, early-summer greens greeted us, a curtain of colors rich in nature’s hues. A few deer, rumored to be part of a population exceeding 200, were in our yard grazing as we did our best to silence our grunts, lugging box after box from our hatchbacks and minivans.

To put it simply, we were enveloped by nature’s childhood quilt, so young, so new, so alive.

Autumn’s demise has left us with a different view of our yard. For the first time, we can see the dead azaleas once covered by the other, thriving bushes. And in the back yard, we have learned that there are no evergreens. The Goucher woods are completely deciduous, and it takes little effort to see completely through the bare branches to the other side of the woods, where the hustle and bustle of campus living is still in full swing as students prepare for finals. When you stand still at the fence that separates civility from the wild, the faint rustle of the remaining leaves clinging to the brittle branches finds you, whispers to you, that even in all its dulled grays and browns, an energy remains that cannot be whistled away by the coming winter winds. The deer seem unaffected by all of it, though; they come and go as they have all year, bringing a sense of calm to the community. In these woods, we are reminded of the things that are most important.

And in these same woods, soon the hunters will walk.

Last week, Goucher announced that an aggressive campaign would be launched to “thin the herd” of wild deer on the campus grounds (you can read the carefully worded press release here). According to Maryland’s Department of Natural Resources, the size of the campus grounds can provide a healthy habitat for 40 deer. A deer kill of 160 over several years seemed to be the logical solution, not taking into consideration the births of two fawns per doe (on average) every year. MDNR and Goucher president Sandy Ungar agreed on an initial hunt of about 50 deer soon after finals conclude.

I am reminded of several literary works where a society functions on a strict management of its community and its population. The Story of B, the sequel to Ishmael by Daniel Quinn, addresses this issue in a disturbing way where he writes about people as a food source. Ungar, who has talked about the importance the deer have to the entire Goucher community, using words like “family” when he talks about them, follows his comments with how the meat of the deer will be donated to homeless shelters.

I find this both disturbing and somewhat cannibalistic that he would suggest enjoying the deer’s presence on the Goucher grounds to create a more friendly and natural collegiate setting. But every year or so, we’re going to slaughter 25% of that family and share their flesh with those who are hungry.

This is the problem, though, when we interfere with the natural life cycles of the animals that are native (or once were) to our region. We don’t manage the lives of rabbits or squirrels. We don’t need to; there are larger animals to take care of any concerns of overpopulation. We’ve scared off the bigger predators, though, and because the deer remain very high on the food chain, we’ve created an unfortunate situation where we want to keep them around for their cute factor, as long as we assume the role of their predator.

Goucher is not unique. Several companies in and around Baltimore have welcomed deer herds on to their land for the natural and caring image they bring to their corporations. Eventually, though, slaughters are scheduled there as well to “manage” the herd.

We can’t have it both ways. The Goucher president was wrong when he commented sarcastically to a local paper that we’re not dealing with a bunch of “Bambis” on campus and that the general population shouldn’t view them as such. We’re not doing any animal a favor by providing a nice, secure habitat for them solely for our conveniences, only to hunt them down and kill them when they’ve procreated to sustain the existence of their species.

In the meantime, I have to figure out what I’m going to tell my children when they see the hunters in the trees, just on the other side of the fence, the one separating civility from the wild.

The Significance of the Tree

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When we moved last May, we debated about whether to bring our old tree with us. We bought it back in 2000 because we had a National Lampoon experience seeking out the perfect live tree. Three bad evergreens later (all resting outside our living room window, thank you very much), we decided to go artificial.

At that time in our lives, nothing could have been better or more convenient for us. The townhouse we were living in could handle few variables like the risk of a new tree every year, and with two more kids to come along in the next four years, we relied heavily on the structure and reliability of breaking out the box, building the bush, and plugging it in.

Voila. Instant Kristmas.

So when we moved to a much bigger home, we thought it might be time to say goodbye to ol’ greenie and go live. For some reason, we decided against it and brought the big lug with us.

We’re now glad we did.

Ol’ Greenie is now the kids’ tree in the family room, which they had a blast decorating. In the more formal living room, we put up a second, live tree. We bought brand new glass ornaments, garland, and ribbon for the tree, and without even realizing it, we were building a memorial to our mothers, both of whom passed away in 2007–five weeks apart from each other.

The last two ornaments we put up were the ones we picked out for our respective mothers. Amy picked an antiqued owl, and I selected the angel holding a star. In the beginning, I thought nothing of it, but when I approached the tree to hang up the hand-carved angel, I was overwhelmed with sadness. Suddenly there was a new significance to this live tree that was now in our living room. Yes, it embodied the spirit of Christmas and gave all of us a cause to pause and reflect, if but for a moment, every time we passed through the room. But now there was something more.

We had made it personal. We had made it mean something deeper than what we had been used to.

Simply put, when we shared our love with the tree that embodied the spirit of Christmas, it gave something back. Like the magic in Frosty’s ol’ hat, the magical feeling these two ornaments brought to the room is indescribable.

And that’s ok.

The picture at the head of this entry is Mom’s angel. I take great strength from this. Most of all, I take love to give love, and right now, I feel as if I have a limitless supply.

Counting Down to Winter Break

I don’t know why this year feels so different, but I have been absolutely obsessed with the eleven days that await me, officially at 2:10 p.m. on Friday, December 21, when school ends.

I think getting my Jeep has done a lot for me in enjoying time outside of my profession. It might also be why I haven’t written nearly as much as I have in the past. I’m busy doing other things, all of which bring me great happiness.

There’s just so much to look forward to, as well, with all of that time. I think my to-do list looks something like this:

1. Seek out snowy roads to break in the Jeep.

2. Work on a new piece of creative nonfiction and get a solid draft completed.

3. Spend more time with my kids, especially my son, and do what they want to do and not what I need to do.

4. Cook at least one dinner for my wife (and kids, of course, but they probably won’t eat it!).

5. Clean up my digital music library.

6. Paint the bedroom (maybe), if we can decide on a color.

7. Read a book. Any book. I’ve got The Arsonist’s Guide to Writers’ Homes in New England that I’ve been trying to read….Looks good. Will be the first book on the to-read list.

8. Stay up late watching really good movies in Blu-Ray quality and sleep in late the following mornings.

9. Catch up with some old friends and write letters to the others that I won’t be able to see.

10. Walk every day.

I know this might sound like an ambitious list, but it really isn’t. Truth is, though, that if I’m able to do even half of these things, it will be the best eleven-day run I’ve had in decades.

Love to all!………………………rvw

Stop Aids. Keep the Promise: Leadership

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I’m not too sure what to do with this one. My ignorance remains on the fence, with anger on one side and resolve on the other.

First of all, I didn’t even know 1 December was World Aids Day. No clue. I learned about it as many others did: online or on the evening news. 12/1 has been World Aids Day since 1988, when their theme was Communication. Now, the Conference has selected the general theme for 2005 to 2010 to be Stop Aids. Keep the Promise, with a sub-theme cited for each year. This year, the sub-theme is Leadership.

I guess what really rocked me yesterday was not the fact that it was World Aids Day and I didn’t even know it; it was the film I saw on the evening news. In Baltimore/DC, there were special memorial services held for all local AIDS victims, and their names were read at the ceremony by three volunteers. The camera panned, left to right, as the volunteers read the names in the blustery winds. It indeed seemed very solemn and moving.

That is, until the camera zoomed out for a wide-angle shot, revealing not a single person in attendance. Not one person sat in the clay-gray folding chairs set up in front of the three podiums.

All empty.

And yet, the reading of the names continued, somberly as ever, names of loved ones falling through the air and hitting the cold, barren pavement among the empty chairs.

I’m not sure if the media editor chose to leave that shot in to dramatize the significance of the zero-attendance situation, but it made the event look just horrible.

I wonder how others perceived that segment when they watched it. Were you as outraged as I was?

I’ve had too many friends and members of my family die as a result of AIDS, so maybe I need to take the Leadership charge that’s been placed before me and do something meaningful with it. I think that I’ve been one of the masses who have swept this one under the rug, for some seemingly unknown reason.

I’m going to do my research, and then use my writing, here and elsewhere, to provide a little leadership to others, whether it be for awareness, action, or otherwise. I’m also going to remember some pretty good advice a friend long ago told me about the significance of “fill-in-the-blank Days,” where the world pulls together for one day and feels good for another 364 because they did something on that day. Every day should be AIDS Day, or Bay Day, or Earth Day, or Whatever Day. We hold these annual events as reminders, with the hope that individuals will use that symbolic day as a kickoff for action.

Today, I’m one of those individuals.

So, share with me your thoughts. Did you know that yesterday was World AIDS Day? And if you did, was there anything you did to signify the day’s importance?

rus uncut 12/1/07

I haven’t done one of these in a while. Then again, I haven’t done much writing at all in a while. I was telling my friend Steve the other day that this didn’t bother me, though. And it doesn’t.

The fact that it doesn’t bother me bothers me. And that’s why I’m writing.

So…Onward.

What have I been doing, then?

Got my new play toy, which I christened a few weeks ago at Assateague National Park just south of Ocean City, MD.

Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket All my life I’ve wanted to have a Jeep, but I was always told about how impractical they were, how bad the gas mileage is, and how they are so susceptible to break-ins. But I guess at the age of 42, I don’t really care anymore. This will be my last big car purchase for a very long time (I hope), so I’m not wasting any time in enjoying it.It was cold in Assateague! The girls chose to love each other a little more dearly while we were there, primarily to stay warm.

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And, of course, we made sure that we had plenty of time to see the ponies.

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We stayed at the Carousel, where they have an ice rink inside the hotel. The kids absolutely loved it, and with the exception of the ride home, where everybody got a little cranky, it was clearly the best family trip we’ve ever taken together.

Hope for future trips, especially to Florida to see my sister and brother-in-law, whom we miss so much.

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving! Now it’s on to the mad rush of Christmas shopping and jingle belling!